Tonight I got a fresh glimpse of what opening your heart to love does. I opened my heart to love and suddenly entertainment did not look attractive. So is that why I am so drawn to movies and shows? Is it because I am continually shutting my heart to love? I am very suspicious that that is exactly what it is. I opened my heart and tears ran down my face.
Lord, help me to keep my heart open to You and those around me. When I fail or feel that once again I have missed the mark, help me to keep my heart open to You. Lord, I want the realness of You to be so precious to me that I will tread carefully and yet with joy that You are with me. Help me to hear Your still small voice in the midst of the storm. Give me the strength to act on it. Lord, help me value what is real and true.
My addiction in wanting to watch things all the time did not go away with a year of fasting. Now, comes dealing with the monster, again. Tonight gave me a look into what I do that might have a bearing on it. Ministry comes through love, acceptance and forgiveness. How can I receive it if my heart is closed up?
I am thankful for: The longsufferingness of God.
Work.
Connor and the privilege to babysit last week.
Jerry and his love.
Stacie and that she is getting to teach in Illinois.
Debi who stretches me and makes me think about what it is to be a Christian.
Jolene and the goals she is reaching for.
Brandon and his interest in life and involvement in it.
Melissa and her mothering of Connor.
Chris and his new house and independence.
New beginnings and new stages of life.
Being able to go to PA this weekend with Stacie for my parents auction. (Lord, please let their place sell.) Bradley being able to fly out and drive out with Stacie to Ill. (Devoutly thankful for this.)
Jerry being able to go the writer's convention.
Church friends, especially ones that pray for you.
And church.
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